One of the greatest decisions that I have made at Mizzou was signing up for Alternative Breaks. My time working with the many different organizations has helped me restore my faith in Mizzou. Recently, I was faced with a dilemma of whether or not I should continue my path at Mizzou after having a professor deliberately tell me that he didn't think I deserved to attend Mizzou. His comments not only put me in depression, but also made me ask myself a very important question "What is the purpose?" Not only did I no longer believe in myself but the people around me started to not believe in me as well. No one understood my situation, or even attempted to try help. That's when I started to ask myself if Mizzou is the right place for me.
Then I left for this trip and my whole perspective has changed. I have realized that my self-worth and how I feel about my self doesn't have to rely on a grade or on a professor's opinion about me. I have realized that I can no longer allow what has happened in my past affect what my future will be. Just like one of the people we were serving said "God gave me this life because he knew that I was strong enough to handle it." That's exactly what this trip has taught me, sometimes you think your life is going one direction and it instead goes another one, the only thing that you can do is be gumby and make the best of your situation. Dr. Spain said that this is going to be a week of hope and that's exactly what this week has been for me, a week that not only gave the people we where serving hope, but also restored my hope in this amazing university.
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